Enduring Love

Enduring Love

In my time I have noticed that so many people declare their love but it seems that their love can be turned on and off like a light switch. The kind of love they feel is conditional upon the circumstances in their own lives, when things are good than the love they feel is good when things are bad the love seems to vanish. This is not the kind of love I know.

Whether it be love for a friend, family member or lover the kind of love I know is true and strong and enduring all things. The love I know is the love God granted us when he gave his only son for our sins.

The kind of love that grows stronger with time and does not weaken and a good old fashion fight is filled with passion and commitment because you are willing to fight for that love.

The kind of love that is steady and lasting through all times good and bad, sadness and happiness.

The kind of love that makes you stupid at times but every action you make is base out of that love and affection for who it is proclaimed for.

The kind of love that you would shout from the mountain top and tell every person who you see that you love fully and without reservation.

The kind of love that you couldn’t hide even if you wanted to, because you where it on your face and it shines from your heart,

The kind of love that makes every day possible and every trial and tribulation doable,

This love is not selfish and it does not waver when the earth is shaking and the sky is rumbling.

This love will not change because life does and will not shift to another because feelings get hurt.

It is true and honest and long lasting. It remains solid and secure when life becomes unstable.

You cannot turn it off or silence it, you can only nurture it and respect it for it is real love and not just words.

This is the love I know and want for all people to have and receive.

This is the love that God has granted us and it is up to us to choose this kind of love.

This is the love we all deserve.

The Beast the Blind and the Child

The Beast the Blind and the Child

A child born into this world a miracle granted by God but raised by a beast instead of a father and blind and defenseless woman instead of a mother.

With no reason in the world to dare and dream and every excuse to give up this child carries on as if nothing is wrong in their life.

They move through every day as though tomorrow will be the day that will change everything. Never giving up hope and never carrying hate and anger but loving as though they were loved by some kind of invisible love.

Standing strong and leading those who will follow them, they pray for those who will be hurt each day and praying for those who will hurt them just comes naturally.

An understanding that most will never have that kindness and forgiveness is the answer and key to surviving what would otherwise destroy them.

With no guarantees and no reason to believe they just know that someone is watching over them and someday they will be rescued from the depths of darkness they have called home.

Young in age but wise beyond anyone’s comprehension they choose to suffer in silence waiting for the day they are led down the road to freedom and peace.

What a gift God granted this child to filter out hate and evil and let in love and faith. To save this child with no more than a promise that everything would turn out how it should and a cloud of protection that only he could provide.

To send his saving grace to this child in forms of friends, teachers, policeman, Sunday school advisors, family and strangers. He strengthened his child until they were prepared for the rest of the world which would be just as cruel and hard at times.

This one is to all the abused and battered children in the world. There really is hope and you never have to let those people win by repeating their mistakes. Win with love and kindness, peace and joy, and faith that there is better to come.

My Girls

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Freak Chance or Act of God

Freak Chance or Act of God

I have had several experiences in my life that are unexplained so I will try to share a few of them and you decide.

One day my husband my children and I decided to go to the park and eat lunch. We had a new truck that my husband was very proud of so before we left he had to wash and wax it. He worked on it starting at the crack of dawn. We pile in the truck and headed to the park. First we stopped and got something to eat at the little store just down the street from the park. We then proceeded to go to the park and the only place to park was on the street underneath some trees. My husband immediately started saying I don’t want to park there the birds will poop on my truck. None the less he parked and we headed for the picnic tables. The girls sat with their back to the road and my husband and I sat staring at the truck. It only took about ten minutes before my husband couldn’t take it anymore. He said I have to move the truck. So he went up and moved forward until he was no longer under the tree. Before he made it back to the truck another car pulled up where we parked first. It sat there for only a minute or so and just as it began to pull away we heard a loud snap and a huge tree limb that would have crushed a car fell right where both cars had sat. No kidding.

Then there was the time when my husband and I met at his brother’s house. He had this really old truck with a big motor. He was young and loved to burn the tires in it. I was constantly saying you shouldn’t do that because someone is going to get hurt. But you know the typical guy response. I know what I’m doing. So anyway we were getting ready to leave and he was in front of me in his old truck with my youngest daughter and I had my oldest daughter with me. I had my window cracked about an inch to get some air. Needless to say he proceeded to punch it. Oh and we were leaving a gravel driveway. Before I knew what happened I felt something hit my head really hard. I put my truck in neutral and put the e break on. When I looked at my daughter she started crying and saying mom don’t die. I reached up and felt my head and realized my head was bleeding. The part of this story that is amazing is that a rock somehow found its way through that crack in the window without breaking it and smacked me right upside the head. I was fine but had quite the knot on my head. After about fifteen minutes my husband and daughter returned to see what happened to us. Guess who got an earful.

The most amazing incident that I could tell is when my husband was driving log truck. I road with him quite often when I could. So one day he called and asked if I could get a babysitter for the girls and ride with him to Oregon. I said ok and met him just up the road. It was a normal drive we were in no big hurry and we enjoyed driving down the coast. Then out of the blue we were taking an s like curve in the road and I felt funny. As I turned and looked at my husband he just said “we’re going over”. The look on his face said it all. Neither of us had our seatbelts on for some reason that day. Oh by the way we were loaded with logs. My reaction was to turn and grab ahold of something so I reached for my door because we were going his way. We were on a very busy coast highway. My husband said that just as the truck was tipping a truck was going under us. He said the last thing he saw was the truck clear us and then we slammed down. About this time I flew about six feet and hit the steering wheel and was knocked out, I than landed on my husband who had to hang onto the steering wheel to keep from being sucked out of the truck. He had already busted out his window and his head hit the pavement. Most of the rest of this is things we learned after the fact. Apparently we slid across both lanes and hit an embankment about a foot away from a telephone pole. Then we slid across the road in the other direction and stopped hanging over another embankment.  We were told that had we hit the telephone pole the logs would have come through the cab and likely crushed us. If we had slid a little further we would have gone over the other side and the truck would have rolled once again likely killing us. And beyond anybody’s comprehension not one single car or truck was hit by us or the logs that flew all over the place. And trust me the road was loaded with traffic. Not only was my husband and I both knocked out briefly somehow he managed to hold on to that steering wheel and kept both of us inside that truck. He hung on so hard that when we looked at the truck later the steering wheel was bent completely over. Now I don’t know about you but I know that was an act of God. Don’t get me wrong we both got banged up with scratches and bruises and a few injuries but that’s nothing compared to what could have been

What Would You Do?

I once heard this story and it often comes to my mind when I hear Tim Mcgraws song Live Like You Where Dieing

The story goes something like this. There was a fairly young couple living out there peaceful life having raised their children and found each other after several failed marriages prior. They had only been together for a few years and they where looking forward to the rest of their lives together.

Then the husband had an injury that was going to require surgery that would result in a change in their lifestyle. He had been a hard worker for many years and the thought of not being able to do the things he was used to began making him very depressed. The wife had been preparing for this and was completely aware of how hard this was going to be but she had faith that they would get through it.

The surgery day finally arrived after several months of waiting and it went well. After the doctor told her things went well she proceeded to explain that he was in very poor health and had very little time left. The doctor than began to explain that she didn't think it would be a good idea to tell him until they could get his mental state stable. She pleaded with her not to tell anyone just yet explaining that she though she needed to know but felt it would be too much for him and feared he would do something drastic and devastating. The woman had no choice but to agree for the sake of her husband.

Now when I think of this story I often think of what that woman had to do. I think of what kind of love she must have had for her husband to have to bare that kind of news on her own and pretend everything was OK. I think of her strength and how unselfish she was. I admire her for her faith in god and belief that she was doing what was best for her husband even though the pain and hurt she was feeling was so great. I don't know if many people could have done what she had too.

It often makes me wonder what would I do in that same situation and could I be that strong person when I needed to. I don't know the answer to that question and I hope I never have to.

A teaser from my book.

Ok. Its time for a little teaser from my book. Of course this is just a little of whats is in the book. I don't want to give it all away

Flashback: I was five years old and was playing at the lake where my family lived. We were all having a ball, Dawn, BJ, Danny and Deaker, Treana, Scotty and Kelly and myself. What a good memory playing laughing having fun.
Then he showed up out of the blue. “let...’s go” he said. The look on his face made me shudder. I begged to stay and play with the others. I begged to stay and play with the others. This would only anger him. I did as I was told. When I got in the car, I knew something bad was about to happen. I asked “where’s mom, are we going to get her?” “No, we have something to do.” As we drove I just got this cold eerie feeling. I looked out the window as we left the pave road and went into the woods. I began to cry. “Why are you crying? Stop that you have no reason to cry!” oh how wrong he was. I knew this was not good...............................................

He opened the door and smiled at me. He told me “you know your dad loves you”.

The whole storie is in my book.

 

 

 

Some girls never get it

Hopeless Loser Boyfriends

http://www.sheknows.com/love-and-sex/articles/807046/signs-to-tell-if-your-boyfriend-is-a-loser

The difference between dating a cute, underemployed artist/actor/musician type and a cute, underemployed freeloader can be hard to distinguish. Is your man in a permanent slump? Here are four signs to watch out for and how to take control of the situation.

Sign #1: He's Always Broke

Deadbeat boyfriends are notorious for having a million excuses about why they are constantly broke. The economy is bad, his former boss was a jerk, he's waiting for the check to come in, etc. What they don't have, however, is a plan to turn their financial situation around.

Sign #2: He's Lazy

Do you leave the house in the morning while he's still under the covers and come home to find him parked on the couch? If he's always on Facebook, playing video games, or even if it's just a small thing like not replacing the empty toilet paper roll when it's out, laziness and a supreme lack of motivation are definite signs of deadbeat behavior.

Sign #3: He's Erratic

You may love that he is a nonconformist, but if the guy you're dating continually demonstrates shady tendencies, like disappearing for days, binge drinking, or staying out all night and refusing to tell you where he's been, consider yourself warned.

Sign #4: He Lets You Support Him

No matter how affectionate he is, do not allow your boyfriend to live with you and not pay at least half of the rent and shared expenses. Likewise, no self-respecting man would let his girlfriend always take him out to dinner without ever reciprocating. If your boyfriend allows you to support him or needs your help to accomplish even the most mundane of tasks, he might be classic DBB.