I often wonder about those mothers you hear about in the news. You know the ones who have neglected or abused there own children. Or the ones who have abandoned a child for drugs or men who they love.
I have always assumed there must be an illness because no mother could knowingly harm a child unless there was an illness.
I find more assurance with the many stories I have heard over the years of women who will sacrifice everything for their children.
Stories of women who will work two jobs or go without new cloths for twenty years just to make sure their child has what they need.
Stories of mothers who would give up there family and friends and everything they knew to save a child from an abusive father.
Those stories that touch your heart and make your cry.
Some with happy endings and others leaving you wondering "where did she get the strength to fight to the end?"
I wonder about the difference in these women and what happened in there life to make them sacrifice anything including there lives just to save there children.
I wonder if they ever truly got the recognition or praise they deserve.
I find it hard to believe that you could ever feel anything other than true devotion to the greatest miracle god could ever grand you.
I know from being a mother that some things will never truly make sense to anyone but themselves. Some of the sacrifices you make for your children look different to those looking in.
They sometimes look like mistakes or stupidity. They sometimes look cruel and heartless.
What others won't ever see is the purity behind every mother in every decision she makes for her children.
Some will never see the grand plan behind the eyes, or the prayers said that help her everyday know that what she is doing is the best thing she can do at the time.
Most will never understand how many nights a mother spends wondering how she can do better. How many tears she will shed because she knows she will be the bad guy for many years.
I often wonder for these mothers if the true reward ever comes in there lifetime. Maybe they will only be rewarded when they walk through heavens gate to receive a hug from Jesus himself.
I admire mothers everywhere who will always but their children first, even when they have to sacrifice so much. Sometimes they even risk the one thing they don't ever want to loose, their own relationship with those children.
Its easier to be friends and never tell a child what they need to hear. Sometimes telling them what they need to hear will push them away, but never telling them will fill your hear with guilt and regrets.
I pray for all mother around the world who love with no exceptions and feel for their children but who will not have the answers all the time or for every situation. I pray for them to never give up and I pray for them to continue to love : even when it hurts.
