Crossroads and Sacrifice

Crossroads and Sacrifice

 

Many of us find ourselves at a crossroad in life when we have finally survived enough to make the changes we need to and walk a different life.

This is often a lonely and complicated place to be. We strive to make the right choices and often fight for our beliefs for the first time in many years.

We hold our heads higher than ever before and stand our ground causing all kinds of chaos in our everyday life.

Those who we love have learned to love the old us and may not be willing to accept the new and improved version of who we are.

We tend to challenge and push those around us to follow even if they are not ready.

We struggle with what is an acceptable sacrifice to pay for wanting a better life.

Do we sacrifice relationships, careers, hobbies, or do we sacrifice all the hard work it took to get to this place.

Do we bare down and hold on to hope or do we let go of our lives that we still want.

We have seen a better version of life and we want to share it with those who we love but we are unable to force anyone to open their eyes, just as no one could open ours until we chose to make the changes in ourselves.

We are unable to explain that our new road does not change our heart and love for those in our lives.

We often struggle with fear that our new road will change others hearts and love for us.

We know that the life we were living was not making us happy and life and choices that we choose now will do exactly that.

We know that sometimes we have to make sacrifices to hold on to that happiness but there are something’s that are so important to us that it makes this road a very long ,steep, and windy road.

Unfortunately some of the things that we will sacrifice will not be our choice at all, it will be others decisions to accept us the way we have become or refuse to love the new us.

I guess if that should  happen we should remember that we are not doing anything out of spite to hurt anyone, we are only trying to love ourselves enough to change the inadequate parts of our lives. Many of us have not ever been able to love ourselves at all and it feels good so we will have to stay strong enough to remember we are worth it.