Sunday, June 16, 2013

Hodgie

Hodgie

My whole life I always wanted to know what it would feel like to wake up on father’s day and be exited to pick up the phone and wish a man happy father’s day. Never having a father worthy of giving a card to or giving a damn about, I have never really cared about this day. For the last twenty two years I have only had my husband to wish happy father day too. Don’t get me wrong my husband is the best father figure I have ever met in my life and deserves the best wishes on this day, but today for the first time in years I woke up thinking of wishing someone else happy father’s day. Hodgie
A man who came into my life six years ago and through years of disappointing father figures I refused to give him the time of day.
Over the last couple of months this man stepped up and treated me more like a daughter than anyone has ever done before. He stood by my side when I was hurting and lectured me when I talked stupid. He didn’t take sides and treated me and my husband equally telling us both what we didn’t want to hear but encouraged us both to get our heads out of our butts. He not only treated me like a daughter but took my husband under his wing and treated him like a son.
A man with no obligations to us and with children of his own took the time to help us get things right. He opened his home and his heart when he was dealing with his own stress and never made us feel like we were imposing.
To tell you the truth I didn’t even realize it but he has been there encouraging me for years. He supported me and didn’t judge me when coming off the pills. He has been encouraging me to get well and follow my dreams with my book. He never bats an eye when we need a little financial help and he never makes us feel bad when we screw up.
He took my children under his wing and treats them more like grandchildren than their own grandparents. He tells us he loves us and you know he means it. He loves my mom and worries more about her than any man ever has. He puts her first and would do anything in the world for her.
He may not be my father but he has treated me more like a daughter than anyone ever has.

So this year my father’s day wishes go out to Hodgie . I Love you and wish you well for you have made this father’s day worth something to me. Thank you Hodgie for being there and letting me know what it feels like to want to say Happy Father Day.

Monday, June 10, 2013

This is strength

Linda

This goes out to one of the strongest women I have ever met.
Although I have only physically met her twice in the last twenty two years our many phone conversations have let me see how special she is.
She has shown me strength and love and from the first time I talked to her on the phone she made me feel welcome in her family and life.
She is has just enough crazy in her heart to take on all of life’s heartaches and she has enough energy to fight off anything the world throws at her.
She believes in God and doing the right thing no matter what others think.
She loves with all her heart and never backs down from a fight regardless of how big it may be.
She loves her children with all her heart and lets them know it even when they give her a headache.
She has conquered battles that would take many women to their knees and continues to put a smile on her face.
She has laughed with me and cried with me over the years, never judging me for my feelings or faults.
She has supported her son and I , even when we made no sense at all.
She has believed in my family and cherished my children through all the years, even though we can’t be together.
She has encouraged me and stood by me through all the good times and bad, never letting me down.
Now as she fights another battle life has thrown at her she stands strong and believes unlike anyone I have ever known. She never complains and constantly reassures her children that it’s all going to be o.k.
When I hear her voice on the phone I can feel the pain she is going through but she refuses to worry anyone with her troubles and instead she worries about others.
She is on my mind and in my heart and I wish that I could be there to hold her and comfort her as she has done for so many people in her life.
I want to tell her that all the goodness in her children’s hearts comes from her and there is no doubt in my heart that without her love her children would not have stood a chance in this world.
She is a blessing to this world and her family and will conquer another battle like so many before.
My mother-in-law is a beautiful, strong, inspiring woman who I look up to.
Please say a prayer for her and help her in her fight with cancer. I know God is listening and will carry her through this.
Linda we all love you and miss you. You are always in our thoughts and prayers no matter how far away you are.